Dissapointed!!!!

*Sigh*

Yatah perasaan ku time ani... guess wat? tadi jalan sma babu.. jalan2 cari kain utk abangku kawin ah.. kali brutah ku tau dat new year eve ah... 31/12/2009 ah.. ada function di rumah kami.. canatah kan sambut new year eve di empire tu? hmmm... babu ckp if kami kn jln jua.. tunggu tah pkl 9mlm.. takut ku trafic jam eyh.. krg payah parking lagi apa.. nasib²~ liatlah cana nanti.. ku suruh tukar haribulan.. pi babu ckp, udah booking org berzikir.. function ni untuk aku yg graduate, anak buahku yang dapat 5A for PSR and anak buahku 2org baru bersunat.. kwang kwang kwang.. mun function ni bkn utk aku.. escape ku tu... pi ani.. nada dapat escape ni... sedih ku eyh!!!! hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

hmmm....

I'm sure all of you are waiting for the result of my interview. My interview was OK. I kinda frustrated that she knew that I'm ubdian. No wonder she keep asked why I don't go UBD or ITB to futher my study. *sigh*. I still don't know the result, but I guess they will not accept me. How can they trust me? Even so simple thing also I need to lie. It's simple for them, but not for me. Even we're degree holder, In-fact there is still so many people out there waiting for a job even after 2-3 years graduated. That's why we really need to find a job at the moment. Well, I'll just wait for 2nd interview. Five of us who got called for interview today was told that we have to attend 2nd interview maybe this week, next two weeks, but she said probably in this month. I got asked her either I got chance or not. She thinks I'm good, but I don't think so. Anyway, tomorrow I'll have to attend demo teaching at PDS school. I'm so not ready for this. But I'll try my best. Better try than never at all ryte?

Back to normal~

Peepz.. i've made up my mind.. i gez, i'll just wait for next year.. ambil master di Brunei ja.. so sementara ani, cari duit and kaja saja.. since my hubby pun nda rela aku jauh2 ngambil master for 1 year.. malas ku argue.. and since course yg kan ku ambil atu pun ada jua di UBD.. "master of education".. malas ku fikir byk udah.. drpd stress.. bek tah ku cari jln penyelesaian.. So goodluck to Amoy and Bina.. hope kamu dua dpt scholarship k... hehe.. ;)

STRESS

Hmmm.. STRESS!!! entah apa yg kan berlaku nanti.. pi msa ni aku stress tahap maksimum.. mana kan exam IELTS gi.. mana kan demo mengajar lagi di Seri Mulia Sarjana School gi.. memilih Uni gi.. ntah dpt atau nda scholarship.. Stress ku memikirkan.. ada2 saja kan difikirkan.. hari ani, aku rasa kan cuba cari University di KL saja.. lagi pun hampir sma Brunei... atupun if ada.. Hopefully ada lah.. dapat jua balik suka2hati.. since ada Air Asia yg stress jua air-fare nya.. kdg2 murah kdg2 mahal..

Today.. amoi, bina n aku ke CFBT kan membayar utk exam ielts.. so semuanya campur bukunya utk practice $315 saja.. afta dat kami ke IDEAL makan.. sambil mkn smbil ku belajar ckp english pat durang bina and amoi.. haha... afta that sebenarnya plan kan ke UBD.. tapinya.. aher sudah ah.. ke BISMI tah kami.. aku n bina mencari buku utk kami demo mengajar nanti.. hehe.. bh ani saja ku update.. payah kan update since router kami rosak ah.. ari ani barutah beli router baru.. alhamdulillah.. hehe..

Bad dream

Subhanallah.. i was having a bad dream lastnite.. smpai keluar air mata ku time tido ah.. (terbangun afta having a bad dream la.. ) wanna know aku mimpi apa? aku mimpi aku meninggal dunia bah.. astagfirullah~.. dlm mimpi ku tu i was so scared.. aku takut aku nda terjawab soalan yang kena ajukan oleh malaikat time aku meninggal.. dlm mimpi ku tu i saw my grandma yg udh meninggal.. then aku terus jumpa ya.. she told me yg ya ada dgr plg ceta pasal aku kan meninggal.. then she said lucky 'ME' pasal meninggal masa bulan ramadhan.. (i knw plg, if tni mimpi org yg udh meninggal atu berckp, dats mean nda benar).. dlm mimpi ku tu, banar2 ku takut.. coz im not ready yet.. amalan pun lum cukup.. i need more time.. pi hairannya, apa nah? i was given a chance to hidup semula.. then time ku terbangun, balik2 ku bersyukur sbb masih hidup n berterima kasih kepada Allah sbb aku masih hidup.

So this afternoon i try to google tafsir mimpi mati.. banar plg nda bleh dipercayai.. coz for me atu a sign for me to alwez remember Allah and melakukan segala suruhannya. so dari google tu.. maksud mimpi ku:

"Jika bermimpi diri anda mati menandakan anda akan panjang umur tetapi jika bermimpi mati hidup semula alamatnya kehendak anda akan diperoleh"

MATI
menurut Islam:
Mati: Melihat mati dalam mimpi adalah penyesalan daripada perkara yang sangat besar. Melihat seolah-olah anda mati, kemudian anda hidup lagi, bererti anda mempunyai dosa kemudian anda bertaubat.

menurut Barat:
Mati: Melihat seolah-olah anda mati bererti anda diancam oleh orang atau situasi yang sudah membantu anda terlebih dahulu. Melihat mati dalam mimpi bererti nasib buruk dan dukacita bagi anda dan kawan anda. Melihat seseorang mayat bermakna akhir situasi. Melihat kawan yang mati boleh mengerti hanya anda akan meninggalkan dia.

****Seram!!! tawakal saja pada Allah..

BErkhatan time..

Adik big ketawa meliat abgnya..
Habiib~ afta berkhatan...

Since ani cuti sekolah, so anak kaka ku mengambil kesempatan cuti sekolah ni utk berkhatan.. haha.. cian anak buah ku tu.. pasal selalu kena takut2kan.. so b4 ia berkhatan kena dulur ia eyh.. supaya memberi ia semangat bah.. mula2 takut plg ia.. kedgran jua bunyi ia berteriak menangis.. hehe... pi atlast ia ckp nda sakit.. haha.. lucky dat i was born jadi bini2.. congratez habiib~~